~mEiKeE~

is a boring day again…nw in my dad office waiting for him to finish work then bck together…everyday wake up early in the morning then bck to dad’s office then slp again in the office, eat in the office, msn in the office, life is the same everyday…

haiz…thing getting worst n worst….i wanna escape…i force myself nt to face the feeling..i wanan pull the feeling out frm my heart…what make me so stupid n crazy on that…????ur question will be no answer…my answer won be the answer that u 1.anyways…i’ll be leaving soon..thing will change…feeling will change..HOPEFULLY!

yup….forget about that…!!!new life will make the old feeling away..haha….

MK,…..u can do that!!

This is the 3rd day i hv been resign n stay at home…kinda enjoy n relax….don knw how is like life journey will going..what will happen..anything will change??hopefully everything going smooth…need to start packing all my stuff n prepare all the necessary thing ald…leaving soon..i’ll sure miss everything here.!arh….arh…ah…..

nw reli nt the time to be in luv?i think so….sorry for everything..i wanna fulfill my dream..i knw…i knw…all i oso knw…i reli appreaciate it….thanks for the care…the luv….the hug..n eveything..it’s reli sweet..For u,all the story may be end 1 day!but for me, hope can continue..but..it cant continue!.we both hv our own thinking…u cant stand on the far distance..if the luv is strong enuf…all prob oso can be ovrcome.but v dare nt to hv a try again..but this may be the good solution la..jz keep the relationship that what v having nw!i dare nt to giv u any promiss.dare nt to ask u wait for me..i scare i break the promis.!anyways…i wish u good luck!!

my dear linn linn will going to celebrate her bday on 23…happy bday dear.!!i reli miss u….our frenship is strong to be forever rite???hahaha……sure la..!!!!friends forever…..need to take good care of urself ya..!don be like skeleton ald ya.~nt pretty.!

wanna go to slp agian lo…wake up too early ald…too bored ald..hehehe

now is 4.15am..ppl having their own sweet dream ald…y i’m stil working..y the stupid stil don 1 to go home…y he got so a lots of effort to play machine..y y y y y…so many y’s come out frm my mind..jz nonstop asking myself y y y?????no answer given to me..haiz..reli tired!tired of the job..tired of the customer n tired of everything include my life.

working is the biggest part in my life ald..long hour work exgusted a lot of my energy.somemore now a bit hungry ald.jz nw was bz wit some paperwork til forgot that i not yt hv my dinner.god~the what i get frm waiting a customer to finish up his credit for whole nite.

jz now hv a very strange number appear in my cell phone.016-8XXXX don know who that fello is..miss call ppl in the mid nite.if i’m sleeping now sure i’ll "F" the fello up side down ald.no brain 1…ald what time stil call ppl..actually is not call…is miss call~what a small kids will do!!but the fello get scolded by me ald.good good~STUPID!!!

k la…slp la…i don know what time is my bed time yet.good nite everyone.~!!!i’m so sleepy (yawning)…….

"June" erm…..lots of memories flash bck on my mind.those memories become the sweet memories that make me grow.

sometimes i jz think y don i make my life easy to erase all those memories..but the answer is i cant make it.those memories ald in my heart for so many years..human being need to face new challenge everyday.i stil rmb when i in diploma…1 of my lecturer told the whole class…"all the difficulty are challanges.we need to ovrcome it.so don say thing is difficult!" n now i reli learn a lot..i become selfish…i become smart….

hv a nice chat wit my dear lovely mate jz nw..we both face the same prob.n endup wit hv the same conclusion…"LET IT BE" and continue our life.jz put the challange aside.be silly is the best solution—mayb~

Dong…dong…dong..no special celebration, no cake,no candle….1 yr older ald..god~so fast…time reli pass so fast…if day and time can stop that will be great…

thanks for all the wishes that all my luvly fren giv me…although u all not beside but my heart felt warm….thanks again~~

hv a great lunch wit Jun n Gerald ytd…so full..don know when will hv the time to gather again~talk about work…gossip….chit chatting for nonsense…reli enjoy~hahaha….

lonely nite….noisy nite….SATURDAY NITE!!!i’m working….working…n working…..piece of shit!!

stupid customer…….yuck~~~y keep asking for IOU….no money then don gamble la…want to gamble but no money…i cant credit so much to u all ar…i oso vry poor here…1 thousand…1 thousand….giv me the money n i’ll spend it nicely la…swipe ur head la…later card decline….so many reason…

haiz…..last nite hv a wonderful show in my club…watching ppl fighting…i feel like wanna punch them oso…i can borrow knife o parang to u all…jz tell……."meikee do u hv a parang o whatever sharp thing??" i can loan to u…die ald then no need to see their drunk face here..errrrrkkkk…….arhhhhrhrhrhrh….

reli hv a bad mood this few days…not enough slp…frust on everything….TIRED!!!! mind non-stop working….nonsense question keep appearing….y this n that….y up n down…how how how!!!!

sometime is reli strange that y ppl asking those stupid question…….mk..stil single?stil no bf??excuse me…that ntg to surprise ok…since when the law said 23 years old gal must hv a partner…god~!!!!don care la…as long as i enjoy my life….fully enjoy….who cares…although sometime will b boring..but i stil hv my frens beside me..no worries…hahaha…stop asking me those question…ok??

haiz…today don know will finish work at what time…who will accompany me chat at this lonely nite in msn?u??anyways i reli hope to finish work early….tmr stil need to work..morning shift somemore…

~~~~back to work lo~~~~~

Had been a long long history that i nvr update my lovely blog…mayb ntg much to say…ntg much to think n oso ntg much to share…however life stil going on..rite??

Hey fren….reli a long time nvr see most of u!!kinda missing here!!!after 1 year+ of working…reli miss my study life…y don i fully enjoy it?? for others mayb i’m in good condition…but for myself y stil i’m not satisfiying?what wrong wit me?? hv a boss that reli taking care of me…hv a group of good senior…but hv a lots of "lousy" n "palia" customer!!reli hate them….irritiating!!!yuck~~~TRANFER me out!!!!haha…but sure my boss will kill me then…

reli hope that i can escape frm m’sia…if the macau jobs reli hv fedbck…that great!!! no worries about the SALARY..i jz wanna go n see more n expose myself…if not "IRELAND"…..here i come!!!

plan to hv a long leave n relax my mental..mentally abuse!hahaha…..STOP THINKING~~Tan MeiKee…WAKE UP!!!!

****how r u??everything alrite??anyways good luck n take care!don know y this few days u always appear n passby my mind…when tired think about u then everything will b alrite.! SILLY MK~

bored monday morning>>this phase will come out from everyone month, student, worker, and…….for me…monday will be a good day cz tmr i’ll be having my off for 1 week of working….

life being change from year to year…..more requirement…more expenses…..more more more…..everything oso will "ask  for more">>>>>familiar wit this???ya ya……slogan for "pepsi" i oso don know when i’ll satisfied myself wit what i have…mayb til the day i die i oso won satisfied myself…..cz human are always greedy….

in stage of 22….i experience different thing in my life…mayb this i what i call i step out frm my study life to the working life….will this last forever…no body can tell me the answer and no body knows…….the behaviour and charactor of certain ppl will oso change frm time to time due to the environment they are….

me myself…..i’m so sorry to what i doing now…i know the way i’ll going now is wrong…but is not the time for me to quit now….i knw i won hurt myself but someone will being hurt….sometime not i don 1 to express myself…but i cant and i don know how to do that..cz i scare i’ll being hurt and the past experience is a big barrier for me!!!..it’s reli not fair..~~

she herself…..mayb i should wish u good luck….i reli see what it called "brave" when i meet u…cz u r brave to face the difficult part in ur life….mayb u havent and don know how to solve it..but i reli admirer wit u….as what i said…fren…fren..fren….what the meaning of true fren??mayb i’ll find out 1 day….jz don take it so serious…cz u hv a symphathy heart to everyone..especially her!!

he himself…..for u….mayb in my heart no love or hate word to discribe the feeling from my heart towards u!!!!all is jz memories…sweet memories.~~~~cz it go through my life…~~

had been a long long time didn’t throw some rubbish here ald..~~so now got tans and tans of rubbish to be throw here..~but keep it as short as posible..

since march til now….end of june…..i had experience a different life style and enter to a different stage in my life~and i think this will be carry on til the day i cant able to work.~~kinda enjoy???+kinda boring????ermmmm……….not reli~but it makes me grow and able to see more then when i’m study in college….wokring life is not as easy as what i think…when i stil a adorable and naive gal in college…i think that i wanna complete my study early and step in to the society to experience what a different world besides study.~but now.~~it stil fresh n new for me…..and going bck to further my sstudy???…think n think n think…..mayb later~~!!!

• no pain no gain???is that true??ya….it true enough~~
• money???no money no talk???not really…..but world is realitic….so need to be ready for that….
• love???……that many type of luv….between family…between fren….between gal and boy…between boy n boy…between gal n gal….between human and pets….and now i’m trying to understand all kind of luv in this world!!!

i miss my family….my fren….!!~~~

**sometimes i cant understand and don know what happen to me lately…y this will happen and when will this end??i know it cant last forever~~and y stil i wanna giv a try??will i regret???what will happen nxt??sometimes i reli feel sorry for that..~sorry my dear~~!!!!i’ll enjoy whatever i hv now!!

what the meaning of "FRIEND"??what does it mean by "FRIENDSHIP"???that reli no truth n worth fren in this world???

as time past by….more n more prob happen btw fren and fren….sometime i reli don understand y a normal human being can change the thing that u told them upside down..inside out and all the way round…it reli annoying and affecting the friendship btw each other…y can ppl insulting each other jz like that??

anyways if u  know u r  rite…and if ppl out there don 1 to beliv and wanna continue their life as what they hv.go ahead!no need to border so much and make urself angry!!is useless to talk so much to the person that not beliv in u!!but must appreciate what ppl giv u..luv n concern..is more important and money cant buy all the thing…

the nxt thing is intention,and  belonginess,is not wrong for ppl to luv each other…but don say wanna kill ppl and whatever stupid word…if ppl don 1 to talk to u then can the ppl jz informed?…don tell others what ppl say n scolding  bad words infront of others and behind me.each ppl oso hv it own feeling..if u 1 ppl to respect u..u better respect other!!!!

seriously speaking..handle "relationship" is not an easy thing…wish everyone good luck!!!